Tuesday, February 7, 2012
Have you ever had God speak to you in a way that you knew it was just for you? When you knew He was showing His love to you in a special way that would hold meaning to you? I hope so because it is wonderful. He did that for me this weekend. Friday night was not a great start to the weekend: we were having a great night at first, and then I got a call from the hospital Layla was delivered at. The nurse calling said "I am just calling to confirm your c-section for tomorrow morning". Huh? I completely forgot that we had scheduled that a while ago thinking that I would still be carrying Layla. I guess there was some kind of miscommunication at the hospital and it never got canceled. The nurse was very apologetic after I explained that my daughter was born 6 weeks ago. I hung up the phone and bawled. Then Sunday we went to church for the first time since Layla died. I was very, very anxious. I cried through almost all of the worship songs. It was really good to be back, but emotional for both Drew and I. After church we went out to lunch with some friends; afterwards, as we were getting into our car, I happened to glance over at the cars parked next to us. Two spots away a car had been shoe polished over all its windows. Guess what the window facing me said?! "LAYLA LOVES YOU". I couldn't believe it!! I hardly ever see the name Layla, especially spelled with a Y. Of all the restaurants and all the parking spots, this is where we ended up. As cheesy as this may sound, I knew God meant for me to see that message that day. He knew it would touch my heart. I was so excited and showed Drew the message, which he thought was amazing too. I am SO thankful for a God that speaks to us in such tender ways-He knows when we need a little extra love and comfort and He is so extravagant in giving it. He is SO GOOD.